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fun times

June 6th, 2016
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Stinson Beach is the most beautiful beach in the world

When my parents weren’t tanked, we had plenty of fun times growing up in Marin County back in the day.  We drove up to the Russian River and canoed around, carried kites and hiked straight up from the house up into our hills, pulling apart rusty barbwire fences and squeezing in between, cutting through pastures on the way.  My father loved hiking, and we made up funny songs as we walked, poems and skits for each other, gut busting laughs.  It almost seemed to make up for unpredictable drunk ugly. Continue reading “fun times” »

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art as my truth

May 24th, 2016

pastels are the best

I was eleven years old when I picked up chalk pastels, and intuitively knew what to do.  I smeared creamy sunset colors with my hands onto the back of a piece of cardboard.  Gorgeous yellow lit up like real light, and a tiny white dot made the perfect sun, burnt oranges were exactly the color of sky.  I used the sides of both my hands to blend purple into the horizon line, like I’d done it a billion times before.  I’d made something perfect.  Life with pastels was beautiful. Continue reading “art as my truth” »

making contact with reading

May 17th, 2016
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love those books

 

 

 

 

 

The more you read

The more you grow

The more you grow

The more you know

The more you know

The stronger your voice

When speaking your mind

Or making a choice Continue reading “making contact with reading” »

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I don’t want to act like a bitch anymore…

May 10th, 2016
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dream image of meeting C

Last week I posted a story that mentioned my sixth grade classroom experience, and the poor girl, C, who picked her nose in front of us.  I don’t know what happened to the rest of her life, but I do know she was institutionalized at some point, unable to socialize well.

I had a dream about C last night.  The main action: I’m waiting in front of a college building and C comes downstairs.  We link eyes, and she walks away, but returns to speak to me. Continue reading “I don’t want to act like a bitch anymore…” »

no more secrets

May 3rd, 2016
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many people believe alcoholism is a disease

I started sixth grade with every popular kid in the school in my class, but I played on fringes of cool land.  Like any class, we had our share of major dip shits, the poor freckle-faced girl who picked her nose and ate it in front of us, just about killing us all.  I was hard to ignore, being the tallest kid in the class, five foot-eight inches, shoulder length hair.  Girl hair in the mid-sixties was in-between the singers Brenda Lee with the beehive and Cher’s straight long black mane. Continue reading “no more secrets” »

stubborn

April 26th, 2016
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McKenzie River

I woke up around dawn to the sound of a brilliant yellow bird with a red head banging into our windows.  It might be the bird thinks its reflection is really a mate or an enemy.

I wanted to stop the bird from smashing into his own reflection, so I closed the curtains, maybe that would help. He continues out there chirping and focused on his own destruction. Continue reading “stubborn” »

hermit crab dwelling

April 19th, 2016
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what do we know about time?

Many people believe time is a theory of fourth dimension, like the essence of the hands on a clock.  Part of the scientist Newton’s theory was that time was as a flow, a key dimensional role in math and physics, as well as behavior.  Time measures change.  We live in time.  What happens when we die? Continue reading “hermit crab dwelling” »

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Helen tribute

April 12th, 2016
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Goodbye

My family pulled the Pontiac into Marin County’s Bel Aire Estates driveway in 1956, and Helen watched us unload our car.  She was my age and we grew up together. Continue reading “Helen tribute” »

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writing the truth

April 5th, 2016
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paper became my trusted friend

My sixth grade teacher distributed little manila booklets with fat blue lines .

“These are your private journals, and you can write about anything going on in your life.”

I’d never considered writing before.  I could write truth.

I could describe catastrophes, like my Dad’s time in Napa State Hospital, returning months later and trying, but unable to stop drinking.  My mom, brother and I glad/not glad to see him, but he brought bingeing boomerangs.  He lost another job, lost his car (again) or locked himself up in his bedroom wearing a green jumpsuit, and sang Irish songs along with the record player all Saturday long. Continue reading “writing the truth” »

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gnomes and tubes

March 22nd, 2016
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gnome army

Today was glorious in West Point, California.  Clear skies, 74 degrees, no breeze.  I spent the day using my wheel barrow, creating under a birch tree.  I made a gnome army surrounded by cloud glazed tubes.

I cleared and raked the seventy square feet to lay down weed cloth, which I hope will eliminate unnecessary weed growth. Three trips to the hardware store and fifteen buckets of pea gravel, the space looks like a zen garden.

My gnomes are made out of plaster of paris, and I made ten successful ones from a plaster mold, until the casing for the mold disintegrated.  The gnomes have lived around my studio for over five years.  Some people love my gnomes, with a face like Savannah, Georgian, Johnny Mercer, my favorite lyricist who wrote the song Moon River.  Some people really hate the gnomes and have told me that they are creepy.

They are now surrounded by bent and straight turquoise cylinders glazed with cumulus clouds and magenta interiors.

My interest in tubes goes back decades, because I’ve thought that humans are like tubes.  We have these forms that can be straight or bent, and their fragile nature doesn’t last forever. Our spirits inherit these forms we live with on Earth.  For me, the tubes are my artistic conception of our fragility and hilarity of our bodies. Tube forms crack me up, and I don’t take them seriously at all.

This blog isn’t intense, because it wasn’t an intense day, and the gnome garden will testify to my passions, regardless of whether or not anyone else thinks they are funny.  I’m laughing.

 

 

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