February 6th, 2018

we all have tales

Take care and watch yourselves closely so as neither to forget the things that your eyes have seen nor to let them slip from your mind all the days of your life, make them known to your children and your children’s children.” Moses Continue reading “legacy” »


January 16th, 2018

forceful requires responsibility

Inferiority can be defined as pride in reverse.  If I feel like I’m the worst person ever born, how is that any different than feeling like I’m the greatest?  Both perspectives are not accurate, and both positions erode the soul. Continue reading “process” »

ugly necessity

January 9th, 2018

accept the motion

Dream of struggling in three rivers: Continue reading “ugly necessity” »

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managing fear

December 19th, 2017

what is going on?

I woke up at 3 a.m. wracked in floating fear. This is not normal behavior, so I practiced using tools to get out of fear, and managed to go back to sleep. Continue reading “managing fear” »

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thinking about lyrics

December 12th, 2017

Mt. Tamalpais is home

Steve Miller’s Fly Like An Eagle came out when my husband and I were in our early twenties and didn’t know each other.  I love that song, especially the lyric, “Time keeps on slippin’ slippin’ slippin’ into the future.Continue reading “thinking about lyrics” »

choose a caliber

December 5th, 2017

writing is worth it

November is National Novel Writing month.  NANOWRIMO is a non-porfit inspirational site.  If you go for the challenge, you enroll and keep track of your word count, with number 50K as a novel completion word count. Continue reading “choose a caliber” »


November 7th, 2017

scene of mass execution of the Dakota 38

My son told me to watch the film Dakota 38 and I’d never heard about it.  In case you haven’t heard of it either, the film documents the fulfillment of Dakota Sioux Native Jim Miller’s dream.  Jim tried to deny his dream because of its power. Continue reading “reconciliation” »


October 31st, 2017


how can you tell people lived here?

I called my husband from HWY 101 and told him I couldn’t see much of Santa Rosa’s Coffey Park fire damage.  He reminded me that a freeway is like ‘a river,’ so we only see the ‘banks’ when we drive. Continue reading “remains” »

living through fire

October 17th, 2017

nightmare on the horizon

Yes, the Coffey Park fire, known as the Tubbs Fire continues burning after a week, and is half-way contained. My brother-in–law and his wife survived the fire because a neighbor called, giving them ten minutes.  Evacuating their neighborhood subdivision took over an hour, and another hour to get to a two-lane road headed west. There were so many cars and only one road. Trees were smashing around them, and blocking other exits.   There was no emergency infrastructure.  They spent the rest of the night in a parking lot miles away, glad to be alive.

“It’s purification,” he told me on the phone two days ago, the first time we talked.  It’s all gone, and he’s well aware his life is forever changed.  Starting over as a senior…..

I was impressed by his positive attitude, grateful to his neighbor for calling to tell him to evacuate.  If he hadn’t called, it would have been too late to leave.  Thank you for caring enough to save lives!

Having been evacuated before, I understand ‘get out,’ and leaving stuff, when it comes to life and death.  No question, lives matter more.  Fear mixes with smoke.  There nothing to describe racing away from home with the possibility your home will never be there again.  What’s in the unknown?

My husband and I didn’t lose everything in the Butte Fire two years ago.  However, it doesn’t take long to forget how lucky we are to survive a horrific fire like that.  A second fire in West Point occurred three days ago, burning 250 acres in the downtown area. Four homes were lost.  CALFIRE notified with a ‘robocall,’ if you signed up for notification.  Too bad for you if you didn’t sign up.  It happened really fast.  The firefighters won that time.

If the wind hadn’t changed direction, we’d be toast for sure.  We were spared. So lucky, again. Deja Vu.

What can we do to help?  A friend of mine and her friend took positive action, and started californiafirehelp.com.  Artists and designers are donating items and 100% of the proceeds got to help California fire victims.

Rebuilding efforts will take years, so thousands of people are reconsidering their life priorities.  Do they want to return to a neighborhood after fire’s toxic waste is removed?  Cleanup’s a major job.  Meanwhile changes won’t happen overnight.  Fire is everlasting.

My home stands today, my brother in-laws does not.  We will never know why.  Random winds change so many lives.  California still burns, and we learn to cope.





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no answers but dreams can lead the way

October 3rd, 2017

what to do with stuff?

In this dream, neighbor Larry Smith sits in a lawn chair placing mechanical parts into groups and waiting for instructions of what to make from the parts.  He organizes piles of car pipes and plumbing couplings, large and small bolts and several types of wrenches.  Larry’s face reminds me of my family and friends.  He earnestly looks around, wishing aloud that he’d found instructions to build something from the collected things. Continue reading “no answers but dreams can lead the way” »