forceful requires responsibility
Inferiority can be defined as pride in reverse. If I feel like I’m the worst person ever born, how is that any different than feeling like I’m the greatest? Both perspectives are not accurate, and both positions erode the soul. Continue reading “process” »
accept the motion
Dream of struggling in three rivers: Continue reading “ugly necessity” »
this looks like my last grey cat
Those of us who struggle with emotions understand how difficult it is to endure unwanted feelings. Continue reading “sustain” »
what is going on?
I woke up at 3 a.m. wracked in floating fear. This is not normal behavior, so I practiced using tools to get out of fear, and managed to go back to sleep. Continue reading “managing fear” »
Mt. Tamalpais is home
Steve Miller’s Fly Like An Eagle came out when my husband and I were in our early twenties and didn’t know each other. I love that song, especially the lyric, “Time keeps on slippin’ slippin’ slippin’ into the future.” Continue reading “thinking about lyrics” »
writing is worth it
November is National Novel Writing month. NANOWRIMO is a non-porfit inspirational site. If you go for the challenge, you enroll and keep track of your word count, with number 50K as a novel completion word count. Continue reading “choose a caliber” »
Bernal Heights neigborhood
I walked down a Bernal Heights neighborhood street in San Francisco, and two six year-old boys had their faces inches away from their driveway, scratching sky blue and yellow chalk blobs into its surface, while parents stood nearby, talking about where to put green cans on the street. Continue reading “meditations on childhood” »
oh, the pain of creating my own chaos
I didn’t know what an ego was for a very long time, and there are two ordinary definitions, one concerns self-esteem and the other is a psychological term between conscious and unconscious mind responsible for our identity. Continue reading “ego-ick” »
how down do we have to go?
The indoor pool where I swim has regulars who attend and work out at the same time that I swim. Since I’ve been swimming there for over thirty years, people come and go. Continue reading “go bigger” »
scene of mass execution of the Dakota 38
My son told me to watch the film Dakota 38 and I’d never heard about it. In case you haven’t heard of it either, the film documents the fulfillment of Dakota Sioux Native Jim Miller’s dream. Jim tried to deny his dream because of its power. Continue reading “reconciliation” »